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This is a ranting and raving post. I wrote a whole bunch of stuff but realized nobody would actually want to read about it, so I erased it all and this is what you’re getting instead. Aren’t you relieved?

In other news, my computer animation project is due Wednesday night, so you all will get to see it this week. We’re not supposed to put music on it but I’ll probably add some for the version I’ll put on here. I think it’s going to turn out pretty spiffy.

I am hopefully going to see Munich this week with my brother as well as the Oscar-nominated short films and Transamerica at the Moxie so I will have seen a LOT of the Oscar-nominated films/performances before the awards this Sunday, probably more than I ever have before. Sadly I have to work this Sunday, but I’m going to try and tape it or something.

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I might be getting digital cable + DVR. Our basic cable is included in our rent and I was checking to see how much it would cost to upgrade to digital and get DVR and it was under $20 unless I’m missing something. I might skip out on the DVR but the upgrade would give me IFC!!! And some other good channels too.

This is my newest short film, which I made with Erin. First, neither of us was drunk, we truly are that lame. Or at least I am. Secondly, I am planning the sequel, “Who’s There,” and hopefully it will be released in the coming months. Thirdly, critics have hailed this as one of the scariest films ever made, so please don’t watch it if you are in a dark room alone. And if you get offended easily, pay close attention to the warning at the bottom of this post…

My Electronic Arts admission portfolio is due tomorrow. I’m so nervous. If I get in I will be notified by March 11th. Seriously, it’s going to be the longest two weeks of my life. Everyone tells me I’ll get in, and I have confidence I will, but I still worry that I’m not good enough. I am proud of the stuff I’ve done and I myself like it but that doesn’t mean it’s “good” according to university standards, you know? Bah. I have to submit a statement of goals with a definition of “collaboration” in my own terms, my resume (why, I do not know), my current degree audit (which basically tells it all – from ACT scores to class grades to GPA), and most importantly my digital portfolio. I am submitting “That Dreamboat’s Got My Dog!” and the “House Fire” music video by Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin. I have been sick to my stomach all day just thinking about this. I never get that worried/upset over school stuff but I just feel like this is my entire future on the line. I realize if I don’t get in it’s not the end of the world because I will just fall back on my Mass Media Production/Film Studies double-major (or perhaps look into the new Digital Filmmaking major they’re offering in the fall), but I want to get into Electronic Arts so badly. I need to stop thinking about it and just get this stuff finished up and go to bed.

The band Augustana has my ears throwing fits. If my ears aren’t hearing it they just throw tantrums. It really isn’t a good thing. There’s just something about their style that I’m really digging right now, which is odd because their sound is not something I would normally just love right off the bat. They’re a tad…emo…shh! Don’t tell anyone! Their music is quite depressing if you really listen to it. But at the same time it’s just awesome. Maybe I’ll put some up on my blog soon. I put three of their songs on here. The first is Boston (my favorite), then Wasteland (great), and then Bullets (depressing but good).

I’m glad I don’t live alone. I mean I love having my own place, but if I was all by myself all the time I would lose it. My sister goes to my mom’s house sometimes and I’m here all alone and it just feels weird. I don’t know, it’s hard to explain. I miss my grandpa. I need to drop by and see him. Maybe I will tomorrow after I drop off my EA portfolio? I probably have mail to get anyway.

I am wanting to do something for spring break, but I don’t know what. I really want to go on a road trip, but I don’t know where. There’s a lot to do in St. Louis but I’ve been there so many times – I want something new. I’m sure there’s plenty to do in Kansas City but I don’t like that city too much. Texas isn’t that far away, but who wants to go there? I am just in a traveling mood lately. Like my infatuation with wanting to go to Bonnaroo in Tennessee this June but not knowing if I can afford it and who I would go with (that would actually enjoy it). Anyway, I’ll probably just end up doing absolutely nothing on spring break. Maybe drive to…BRANSON! Yes that would be a blast. Maybe even make a short film of the whole trip. Anybody have any ideas of what I should do? I just wanna drive. I love driving across the country. At least I always have a chance at a career in truck driving.